I deserved everything I’ve gotten in my life.
I worked so hard. So hard to be where I am.
I sacrificed so much and lost so much of my childhood to be here.
It’s just so frustrating. No matter how far I move in life, it seems like life doesn’t want me to move that far ahead. Life keeps hitting me to the ground yet I keep picking myself up and continue to strive for success. But when I take one step forward, I get pushed back two steps. And people say to stop thinking negative that good things will come. But, I’ve been waiting here for 19 years and I’ve yet to see one good thing come into my life and stay there without getting pushed back. You lose faith after all those years. I simply can’t catch a break. When I see all my close friends who haven’t worked as hard as me and quite frankly don’t deserve as much as me, but yet they have way more than me, I get frustrated and break down. The biggest thing that pisses me off is when girls talk about guys and boost them so much when I know what type of guy they are and it amazes me to see how much these girls care. These same girls don’t care about a guy like me yet they love off the bad guys. The good guys never win. Nor will the good guys EVER win. And it sucks because it forces the good guys to turn into bad guys. But I for one will NEVER change, NOR will I ever win because I choose not to change. Good guys may never win, but good guys will live their life with pride and honour.
